A letter to my reader

    Dearest Reader,
    This letter is for you. I see you. You want someone to relate to you. You're struggling just like I was. You want to be seen for you and not the person that your parents want you to be. I have a story that I hope will change the way we are seen and hopefully the way we are treated. I know I can't do this alone so I need your help. Read my story and share it with anyone you know who is just like you and I. If Mormons can do this with The Book Of Mormon we can do this to the truth and how we need change and help those who need hope that it gets better. Because it will get better and it takes time. It's gonna be a long journey to share this with so many of you but I am ready. Are you?
    

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